I am thankful it’s Friday because I had a week that was stressful, not the kind of stressful that you feel every moment of the week; it’s more like you get to the end of the week and all you can think is Wow! What a week!

Work is very busy and the next two months will only get worse. I was off from work for 1.5 days, sick. I was worried enough about my symptoms to wake up early to go and do some blood tests yesterday morning. I hate waiting for the results of those kinds of tests but hopefully nothing is wrong. I feel like this incident just brought on my annual Anxietyfest (aka my annual doctor’s checkup) a little earlier than I’d like.

I had fight a fight with Brother #2 last night. I shouldn’t have raised my voice; I should have answered his question and left it at that but he kept pushing me and before I knew it I was yelling. His responses were so hurtful. The worst part is that this showed me that his tactics when fighting are just like his older brother and when I think back on those hurtful words, I am dismayed that they are similar in this way. I had no idea he was capable of stooping to that level. Although I’m sad, I’m taking my dad’s advice and putting the situation in context: I know the hurtful words aren’t true; they’re just button-pushing issues that poke so well at my vulnerabilities. I’m more hurt by the fact that he dared to go there more than the actual words that he said, and after a harrowing day that involved one parent in the emergency room (who’s fine now, thank God), it was not a good way to end the day. Many tears were shed.

But in the end I’m alive and my family is alive and honestly, I’m not even exaggerating when I say that if that’s all I get this year, I’d be fine with that.

Filed under: Family by jummy