It’s hard to blog when I’m not complaining. I’ve been trying to think of how I can put a more positive spin on things on this blog and I think most of the topics that I want to share really can’t be super cheery. The best I can do then is try to express how ridiculous I am with these complaints (luckily that requires nothing special from me; that part just sort of happens). Since this is the blog that’s meant to chronicle my life, it’s going to be a bit negative and boring because I am both of those things (not always, but it seems to be the longest phase of my life). I know that it’s my blog and I can whine, complain and moan if I want to, but I wish I didn’t feel like that’s all I’ve got right now.

But since it is…

House
I’m frustrated with the politics of home ownership. As I mentioned before, although I moved into my house in mid-April, I was under what was called “interim occupancy” because the property is treated as a condominium and as a result the building has to be registered with the city. Because of this I have not been paying my mortgage but rather rent for my house. This rent does not go toward the mortgage payment (argh), so I wanted this period of renting to be as short as possible. I had to provide checks for half of April, and all of May, June and July. I was told the place should be registered by June.

It wasn’t.

I found out it was registered on July 24, so I got excited and shared how thankful I was that I could now get on with homeownership. I thought I would have to go in and sign some papers saying that as of July 24 or maybe 25, I was a homeowner (officially), and I’d even get a week’s worth of rent payment back for July and move on with things.

Of course, it is not proving to be that easy.

The builder picked August 20 as the closing date. I have no idea why I have to wait nearly a month to begin paying the mortgage, and I have contacted my lawyer and the builder on this issue and both are in the process of figuring out what is going on.

It’s silly to get worked up about it since I likely can’t change any of the process but it grates on my nerves and now I’m worried that I might lose the great mortgage rate I got if this drags on any longer because they can only lock in a rate for a certain amount of time.

Online dating
Speaking of frustrations, this aspect of my life hasn’t been that horrible at all but I’m ready to throw in the towel and remove myself from the two dating sites I’m on. I just don’t enjoy the process of getting to know men that I wouldn’t normally try to get to know. Why am I getting to know them then? Well, because I am known to be rigid and “too picky” so I’m trying to be less so. I’m irritated with men who claim to be “so interested” in me but then don’t show it with their actions (I’m thankful that they aren’t leading me on though). Even though I’m not interested in them, I want them to back up their claims of being interested in me. Typical, I know, and so very lame. The process has been confidence-enhancing though despite my frustrations. I won’t lie: I have been tempted more than once to settle and do the very things I’d smack a friend for doing when it comes to these men, but I have managed to reign myself in before any actions that I’d regret in the longterm took place.

Lost
Speaking of things I am seeking, I cannot find my smart serve number which I need in order to volunteer at a festival that’s coming up in a couple of weeks. I feel that I have looked through my belongings in a pretty methodical way, but I have no idea if it’s at my house or my parents’ place, or if I threw it away two years ago and I’m wasting my time looking. I could just order a new card but I’m cheap and I don’t want to pay for my carelessness.

Scared
I have to do a blood test; it’s the final piece of my annual physical from five months ago. The form that indicates what I need to be tested for is valid for only a few more weeks so I need to get the test over with already. I always procrastinate this part of my physical exam because blood tests don’t lie, and I like to waste my time pondering illnesses I could have instead of finding out the logical way. I feel my bad health choices are going to catch up with me soon and it’s terrifying, but I keep praying that this won’t be the time. Why can’t I stop eating so much candy already?

Despite all this, I managed to find a cd I’ve been looking for for over four months and some money that I guess I was saving for a rainy day. My mom went through a dental procedure without much trouble and and my dad celebrated 59 years of life over the weekend. And these latter two things far outweigh everything else in this entry.

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