Just when I think I’m ok with never finding a deep passionate love in my lifetime, and instead ending up in a relationship with a good person who doesn’t quite do it for me on my fanciful levels, or ending up single for always, I watch one of Ross Oscar Knight‘s engagement and wedding slideshows (his latest one is here). I love the bride’s dress—so appropriate for the location of the wedding and they incorporated colour into their wedding so nicely.

I don’t know how I discovered Knight’s blog, but since I did this past summer, I’ve been something of an addict. He has an amazing talent for capturing moments in people’s lives in a way that literally gives me shivers. I have cried watching his slideshows of weddings and engagements of people I don’t know, simply because of the sweet moments and emotions he manages to capture.

The first of his slideshows that captivated me is one that actually landed him on Oprah’s website not too long ago. He was asked by this guy, Robert Gray, to photograph his engagement. Knight spent eight hours capturing this extremely elaborate event, which probably tells you that it was no ordinary thing. With the permission of the bride and groom to be, he put the slideshow he had created of the engagement up on his site and people went nuts for it, watching it and sending it to friends and family and it was through this I believe that Oprah got word of it.

The proposal that really captured my heart though was Knight’s own proposal this past August! He didn’t photograph this one naturally but he planned it and it’s beautiful. There’s one part that’s especially sweet that gets me every time I watch it—any guesses? I could tell you all about it but if you have some time, you should watch it. Knight gives the back story here, if you want to know what’s going on.

So I’m back to believing that I deserve the kind of love that’s deep, abiding, and total. I deserve to have some guy get stressed out planning a proposal that will blow me away (though I certainly don’t need anything as elaborate as some of the ones Knight has been involved in to be happy). You see, as I watched the slideshows, I would think things like “She’s absolutely gorgeous, she looks like a sweet person” (about Robert Gray’s fiancée) or “She’s a PhD, she’s beautiful, she seems like somebody who really loves life” (about Knight’s own fiancée) as reasons why they deserved such lovely proposals. Then I’d inevitably turn to myself and wonder what in me would inspire someone to do anything fancy for my engagement, and I was thinking I’d be pretty darn pleased to be proposed to, period, and who cares how.

My looks haven’t changed, my weight hasn’t decreased, I still don’t ever look put together in the mornings but none of those things will make me any worthier in the eyes of the right man. I love my heart and my sense of humour and one day I will meet someone who feels the same way.

Filed under: Introspective, Love? by jummy