My latest low point
July 17, 2007
I have taken to spying on former classmates via facebook so I can wail to my sister about how much better their lives are than mine.
The measurement of quality of life is based on whether or not my former classmates are:
a) engaged
b) married
c) with child
(Because we all know that if you are engaged, married or pregnant, your life must be perfect, right?)
While the number of former classmates that graduated in the same year that I did from highschool who are living perfect lives isn’t enough to make me burst into tears, the number in my sister’s age category is! My sister is two years younger than I am yet it seems like every former classmate of hers on facebook is engaged, married and with at least one child! When did this happen? How come these twerps have moved on to their happy ever after ahead of me? What’s the point of being older if you don’t get to experience stuff first?
I’m feeling very cheated.
Speaking of, it’s getting to the point where I’m only one tenth joking when I wonder what I did wrong. Do only the good kids get a significant other? What is the requirement for qualifying to meet someone you could date, if only for a while? Did I miss the sale? I honestly never knew it would be this hard.
I stalk everybody on Myspace (seems Facebook is harder to find people). It's a weird obsession.
Oh, Joomy. I know you tell me that I'm so much younger than you… but I feel the same way. Everyone has 'it', whatever it may be and I just don't have it.
And that doesn't mean that I'm not happy with my life, because I have a wonderful family and a wonderful car and a horse who loves me and a cat who is an ass, but dammit, I feel like there is something more. Sigh.
Sometimes I read here and I feel like we are cut from the exactly same cloth.
Well, I feel exactly the same way – reading/hearing about my ex classmates, and how much they've achieved… makes me feel like I've wasted my years – as I've not really achieved ANYTHING. HELL, this has just made me realise if we had a 10-year reunion… it would be next year!! Don't think I'd want to go now. No partner/children, no flash career/job, no travel, no house, not even a car… NOTHING.