Trente-trois looms

February 1, 2012

I’m less than six months away from my thirty-third birthday and I can already tell that 33 won’t just be another number. I still feel lucky each day that I wake up, but 33 is awfully close to 35, the age I have in my head when it’s ok to panic about the fate of my future progeny. I’m allowed to start actively worrying about the declining quality and quantity of my eggs at 33. At 33 I can begin the silent treatment against my future husband because his late arrival in my life will rob me of those blissful “married and kidless” years that I hoped to have. I’ve determined those years will play a factor in our ability to stay together when our kids abandon my husband and I to live their own lives. We won’t have those blissful years to look back on with fondness and I’m prematurely resentful of that.

Life would be simpler if I didn’t want children. I’d still be incredibly impatient and grumpy for having to wait this long to be with my life partner (while so many others got to meet their mates in their 20s or earlier), but there wouldn’t be the added sense of panic that thoughts of my biological clock brings.

Of course I can have healthy children past the age of 35, just like there could be complications if I was under the age of 30, but it’s all about the odds when you’re past 35. Icky, possibly less favourable odds. My mom gave birth to Brother #2, her fourth-born, at age 33. I just did the math right now and that makes me feel like booing and hissing even more.

But enough doom and gloom. Unfortunately nothing I can do will make things happen faster than they’re supposed to happen. I just hope they’re supposed to happen for me.

Running the 5K in May 2012!

January 23, 2012

Four years ago this May, I ran/walked a 5K to raise money for the Canadian Diabetes Association (CDA). I’ve signed up to do it again and if you would like to support the cause, I encourage you to follow this link.

My goal is to raise $1,000. Last time, my goal was to raise $250 (the minimum required by the CDA), and thanks to readers of this blog, friends, and family, I was able to raise $793! The minimum I have to raise has doubled to $500, but with hard work I’ll definitely reach the goal. I’m 18% of the way there, actually, thanks to two very generous people in my life.

I’ve been eating a lot of cookies lately, so I couldn’t help but comment on Facebook about the irony of updating about cookie-eating habits and 5K planning in practically the same breath. Even though the money I’m raising is for the CDA and my mom is diabetic, the cause hasn’t turned me into a sugar-shunning person; I do hope it does one day. I was discussing this issue with someone and maybe one day I’ll share what I wrote about my weight journey because I don’t think I’ve ever put such thought into writing about the topic before and I’m really proud of what I wrote. The truth is I still eat more sweets than I should, and I don’t exercise as much as I should. I intend to give myself plenty of time to train for the race so I can beat the time from my first race. I don’t think the CDA will mind taking money from someone who has a soft spot for sweets!

A year and a half ago, I tried a run/walk program and got up to seven minutes of running followed by a minute of walking, repeated three times. It’s been so long that I’d have to start again from the “one minute run, two minute walk” days but I have time. I don’t move fast but I’m hoping using this program on race day along with the adrenaline that’ll come from the race itself and wanting to beat 2008′s time, I’ll finish the race around the 40 minute mark. I’ll be very proud of myself if I can accomplish that and if I don’t, at least I tried and did something for a cause I care about… kind of reminds me of the protest I took part in last week.

Twelve by 2012 recap

January 21, 2012

I didn’t cross every item off my Twelve by 2012 list, but I’m satisfied with my progress. I know if I hadn’t joined the challenge none of these things would have been accomplished in 2011 because I would have just procrastinated on them (and in many cases I did procrastinate, but I got them done just barely on time!).

What I did:

  • buy winter tires for my car Done December 23, after weeks of my dad reminding/nagging me. I resent the almost $600 spent, but appreciate the increased comfort I feel driving on icy/snowy roads!
  • increase my car payments (by making an extra payment for the year or seeing if I can have more added to the bi-weekly payments) Done December 30 (I increased my bi-weekly payments by 21%).
  • buy a GPS system Done December 24 on the early Boxing Day sales online.
  • send out a save the date email or invitations to a Christmas party/gingerbread party/cookie exchange party (can’t decide) at my house Done October 29 via Facebook…the Christmas fête event was held on December 3!
  • email the builder of my house regarding getting touch up paint (I was supposed to follow up on this a year ago…they may not give it to me anymore!) Done October 26. They can’t give it to me anymore because they no longer use paint from that particular supplier…or so they said. I think they’re just mean, to be honest.
  • return the three huge cases of water sitting by my doorstep to the store I bought them from Done November 3 thanks to Ves
  • host the regular Friday night gathering with my friends Done December 30, on the last possible Friday of the year (of course!). We ordered in food and had a very chill time. I need to do this more often.

What I still need to do (maybe):

  • increase my mortgage payments (by making an extra payment for the year or seeing if I can have more added to the bi-weekly payments)

    I need to first check to see if the conditions of my mortgage allow me to make extra payments, and I think I have to search my paperwork for that.

  • find a pretty way to mask the visible electrical cords behind my tv

    I don’t think I’m going to find something pretty that doesn’t look weird, unless I get one of those big wall units for the cords to hide behind so I might take this off the list.

  • call the church back about the volunteering opportunity that I signed up for

    They actually called me back this year, then I called them back and sent them an email. Now they’re waiting for an email from me, telling them about myself. Figuring out what I to put into the email is making me procrastinate on drafting it.

  • hang curtains in the living room and my bedroom (at least)

    I just don’t care enough to make this a priority, and I don’t really want to put any holes in my walls. At almost three years old it’s not a new house anymore but I’m still babying it, apparently!

  • develop a WordPress theme for my GNG blog

    It didn’t happen last year but it will this year. I feel very close to a breakthrough on this front.

I want to get these things done by March 31, 2012.

New Year’s Day 2012

January 9, 2012

The older I get, the more I want to actively mark traditions, especially those related to Christmas and the holiday season. So far I have the following:

  • My Christmas tree goes up on the last weekend of November.
  • I host a Christmas fête the following weekend, for friends, on the first Saturday of December (it might be a bit premature to put this down here since I’ve only hosted one such event).
  • I go to the Christmas Eve service at my church with my family, followed by early Boxing Day shopping that evening.
  • I sleep over at my parents’ place on Christmas Eve (it didn’t happen this year but I slept over on Christmas Day, Boxing Day, and a couple more days).
  • I host my family at my house on New Year’s Day.

This last point also happened for the first time this year. I decided to make a turkey dinner (my first, actually!) I’m embarrassed to admit it but it was also my first time making mashed potatoes (I’m a sheltered flower, yes I am!). Dinner was simple: turkey, stuffing, potatoes, and asparagus.

After waking up at the decadent hour of 11am, I decided to take my turkey out of the fridge, where it had been defrosting for less than 24 hours. It was still frozen. I had to transfer it to a bath in my sink. I had cut up the bread for the stuffing the night before, but it was still pretty fresh and soft, so I had to toast several batches of it in the oven while trying to quick-thaw my turkey.

Let’s talk about stuffing for a moment: I love it, oh so much. I always eat more stuffing than any other thing, and when I’m responsible for setting the table at my parents’ place, I always make sure the stuffing is set in front of me. As much as I love my mom’s stuffing, I was really excited to try out a stuffing recipe from the Food Network booklet my friend and former colleague Gen gave me. The last time I recall seeing the booklet was before my Christmas fête. I calmly checked all the places I thought it should be, then became more frustrated as New Year’s Eve day wore on. I eventually had to give up but I’m still pouting that I couldn’t find it when I needed it. I hope it didn’t end up in my recycling box by accident! My default stuffing recipe came from a cookbook I got from Ves and Rich as a housewarming gift, combined with the vegetables and herbs I recalled my mom including in her stuffing. I did have to call my family and ask them to bring some sage or poultry stuffing because I hadn’t done a complete inventory of my kitchen contents before cooking.

My parents and sister came by after church that afternoon (Brother #1 could not have been convinced to attend and Brother #2 had gone out of town for New Year’s Eve) and my mom proceeded to bustle around my kitchen, helping to get that turkey in the oven as soon as possible (she can’t resist a kitchen) while my dad and sister made themselves comfortable. We had a really relaxing afternoon: my three guests watched a football game and enjoyed some wine and snacks while I surfed the web and ate sugar cookies. Dinner was served at 9pm (thanks to getting the turkey in quite late!). Doesn’t it look good?

I wasn’t kidding about my mom loving the kitchen!

And the best part was that my parents and sister slept over! I was happy to have them over and they planned to sleep over as a surprise to me. And because they knew they were staying over, they could indulge to their heart’s content, stay up late and not rush. Dessert was cheesecake (oh yes, I have to tell you about my cheesecake debacle) with tea and coffee.

My dad usually likes to get a quick start on the day but the next morning even he lounged around chez moi until noonish, or maybe a bit before. My parents left and my sister stayed. The two of us watched a movie (accompanied by tea and more sugar cookies for me!).

It was a really good New Year’s Day and I hope it’ll be a tradition we repeat next year. I learned a lot about cooking turkey dinner too so maybe I’ll have most things done by the time they arrive next year! And hopefully, my brothers will attend next year.